I know why they call it
"Breaking up"
Because it feels like you are
It feels like all you've ever known is a lie
Like all you ever cared for is gone
Like it was all a big game
Like it wasn't real
How you felt
All the emotions
Wasted

You have so many questions
Why?
It's always the first thought
Was it something I did?
Said?
Is it my fault?
Did you find someone else?
But no matter what you ask
There are no answers that lend consolation
Nothing can

It's a cut that runs too deep
After the wound heals there will always be scars
Because that person was a part of you
And now they're gone
They've left too soon
You still need them
You still love them
And now
You miss them

You miss their warm body beside you
You miss their comforting embrace
You miss their familiar smell
You miss how their hand always found yours
You miss their lips crushed against yours
You miss hearing their voice requiting your love

You feel so torn inside
Ripped apart
Your heart is beating to a sprinting drummer
All you feel is that cruel emptiness
That chill when you know you're alone
You feel utterly and completely incomplete
You don't want to live
Not without them
Yet you know you have to try

Your friends try to make you smile
Try to make you laugh
And when you need to
They let you cry
They're always there for you
Whenever you need them
Without your friends you'd never get through this
Your friends love you
And they won't leave you

But there's still that emptiness
No matter how many times they tell you
"You'll find someone better"
"It was stupid for them to let you go"
"They're not worth your tears"
You don't believe them
Because you want your lover back
This pain is too much
And you can't alleviate it

All you have now are memories
And the memories won't suffice
They're not good enough for you
You want the real thing
Because that was ecstasy
And you want it back